I have so many things i want to thank God for i think i cannot even write them all out on paper, i'll just finish all the paper in the world! One of the things i really really really have to thank God for is this- my relationship with God grew alot better since the last youth camp, and since then, i thought that since my relationship with God is so good, i wouldn't have to be worried about any thing anymore! but i realised that i was wrong. Only recently i felt that the Lord wasn't there for me. Even when i called out to Him, i couldn't hear His voice. it got really really dissapointing. And just this Saturday during worship at Edge, I got desperate for God. And as i was singing and worshipping, i could seriously feel the difference! I could feel the Holy spirit doing His job in me! As i worshipped, tears filled my eyes over and over again, and somehow i knew, that the Lord was there for me, i knew that the Lord was there to answer all my prayers!
But the next day, Sunday, it was totally different. Something happened and i questioned God why didn't He do a work in me unlike how he did a work in everyone else. i felt burdened, lost and empty. I didn't know who to turn to and i didn't know who could take me out of this situation.
So, i decided to turn to God in prayer. I got the guitar, and locked myself up in my room for quiet time with Jesus. And THEN, i felt the holy spirit coming through. again, tears ran down my face and i knew that God was doing something in me. After i prayed, i could feel the difference. i felt lighter and i felt like i was no longer burdened. It seriously felt like i was worry-less and all i had to do that night was to sleep peacefully because i knew that the Lord was with me!